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holyhangover batman…


When I had a actual hangover yesterday, I posted “holyhangover batman” as my facebook status, my sister’s reply was “Hangovers are like men, the best way to get over one is to get under a new one, drink up bitches!” It made me laugh. Although my reply was something along the lines of reminding her of a bad hangover she had once where the only “getting under another one” was to get back under the covers after puking again and going back to sleep. I thought about the breakup hangover and realized the depth of the hangover depends on how you should react. Sometimes, you get under a new one, and it’s easy, sometimes you puke and get back under the covers for a while, hide so to speak, so that you can recover while drinking a ton of gatorade (which would be spending time with friends in the case of a man hangover). If you use hair of the dog to recover from a bad hangover, you will eventually have to face the hangover when you stop drinking… Is love like getting drunk?

Dating without getting over my broken heart was doing exactly like drinking to get over my hangover, eventually when I stopped, I felt the hangover. I had to crawl under my covers and sleep it off, then I re-hydrated by hanging out with my friends again. I think I’m still hydrating, not ready to drink from the pool of men again, but I’m starting to crave it again, like an alcoholic craves a drink even years after they have had one. I know however it won’t be a good thing for me, so I am refraining from that urge to drink. Well, not alcohol anyway, just the nectar of men, because that hangover doesn’t compare to the one I had yesterday from drinking way too much vodka.

It’s not that I’m afraid of having my heart broke again, I actually recently got over that fear, which is how I allowed it to happen in the first place. I do realize I’d rather have a broken heart than feel nothing at all, how I was for a very long time. I realize that feeling this, hangover, is in fact feeling something, and I would rather feel it than feel nothing. If I turn on the fear again, block it out, become numb again, I could just go date again, but it would mean nothing. I want to feel not only the pain of the hangover, but I want to feel drunk in love again. So, for now, I’ll continue to hydrate myself in an effort to rid myself of this hangover, so that someday I can get drunk again.

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4 Responses to “holyhangover batman…”


  1. September 6, 2010 at 12:08 am

    Hey! Women are like potatoes..their skin is thin and they are MORE productive if they are buried.

  2. September 6, 2010 at 2:56 am

    har har har…

  3. September 8, 2010 at 2:09 am

    Love this post and it’s a good reminder that even if we are sad, we are feeling something. And feeling that sadness is because you felt happiness before. Sometimes I ask myself if I’d have traded in the 7 years with my ex if I could have avoided the pain. My answer changes every day….

    • September 8, 2010 at 11:01 am

      Sometimes I think it would be easier for me if I could erase my past, but I think so much of my past made me who I am today, and even though that is totally fucked up, I know things I wouldn’t know. I think instead, I’d rather just go back to a younger me and start over, see if I did things a little different, what would happen.


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