Posts Tagged ‘karma


from dead lappy to happy pappy!

My new puter is being custom built!

So I looked all day at work, since it was slow, for a new computer. I could have got another crappy toshiba laptop, almost the same as the one that just died, but would it last longer than 3.5 years before the power thing had the same problem? It seems to be ALL toshiba laptops. I’m really not impressed with anything toshiba anymore, they use to be considered great laptops, now, not so much. I worry about my TV at the same time that I bought last year.

So, I got a smell (aka. Dell) computer. It’s really high tec, that’s a pic of it, but I got black, not blue. Wireless, wireless keyboard and mouse, and my big tv downstairs is the monitor. It has a dvr, so I can record stuff, it’s also a high def dvd player. Which is cool cause mine died like 3 months ago… ironically, it was also a toshiba dvd player and had power issues…. I think I’m seeing a pattern here. So. No more toshiba electronics in my house! Um, it does a bunch of other cool stuff too, but, I can’t tell you about them because well, it’s not in my possession yet. I had to order it.

So, with that being said, I probably won’t blog much for a while, I have no home computer and am typing this with curious eyes watching me at work. Unless somehow, by a miracle I can make my lappy come back to life for a few more weeks, I’m just going to do with out at night. I will however, as some of you know I have my mothers ocd tendencies when it comes to determination and something I care about, tonight be working on the power issue to see if I can make lappy work again at least for a few weeks. Cross your fingers for me that it works, and that I don’t get electricuted, cause, that is just my luck.

Oh, remember about my even steven luck? For example getting a check for unclaimed property from the state for $568? with in a few days… my computer breaks… TOLD YA! EVEN STEVEN, every effin time. It can’t just go good and stay good for me, it has to even it’s self out. I find money, something will break to take it away. My car started to sputter too 2 days ago… but since the computer died, it decided to stop so I don’t have to fix it. But you see, karma was going to even things out for me, one way or another. So now, my found money is gone. So annoying.


Luck of the….

If you never hear from me again, it’s cause this is standing at my back door tonight when I get home… just sayin. I’m on an odd streak of really good luck. Which if you have known me long, know will never last. You understand the rebound effect of good luck for me, that I’m even steven in the world of karma. How ever much good luck I have, that much bad will follow. If I get money, I get a big bill. If I find love, it breaks me down. If I get a degree, I’ll never get a job. Not just that, little stuff, like parking spaces, green lights, finding cheap gas, all of it will be reversed or totaled up for one big collapse of bad luck rolled into one. Much like the luck of the Bundy’s, I sit awaiting retrubution for the check I got from the state on Friday for $568.80 for “unclaimed property”, for the change on my nursing license going so easily that without question, I hit every green light to the bank with the check, to work, to the vet. I was in and out of dunkin donuts in under 2 minutes. All weekend, things went smoothly. I’m scared guys, really scared because I got confident over the weekend, I’ve been walking on sunshine since Friday, feeling great, looking great, being noticed. What’s worse, I have a feeling there is a lot more good a comin… It’s going to get amazingly good before it turns. And that is what scares me.

I feel a little like Al Bundy right now, I mean, the good luck is great, but I keep ducking waiting for the bad to follow. I don’t know when or where or what. I’m biding my time with the good though, just someone remember when I come in here posting I’ve won the lottery jackpot and am marrying a fabulous beautiful Dr. to remind me of what’s to come!


Law of Attraction? or not?

Thinking about the article below, how it’s affected my relationships with the opposite sex, it brings me back to this whole self fulfilling prophecy thing again. The only issue I have with the Universal Law of Attraction is that I fear for myself at least, keeping such a positive focus on the future and what I want, would I not become prone to having the proverbial wool pulled over my eyes so to speak? Yet, looking for signs as I do, that someone is lying, being deceptive, and keeping my guard up, does that not according to this hypothesis bring just that into my life? This is my struggle right now. I want to be positive, it’s in my nature to want to be trusting and to want the beautiful perfect life, but am I a fool to not self protect a little?

I have thought about this with regards to the last few attempted relationships. Mr. NY, when I was open to anything, to happiness, he fell in love with me (or at least said he did), but when I worried because he went home and his behavior changed slightly after 24 hours, he became the liar I had thought he would be. Next up were a string of guys I dated casually that met all of my expectations of being scum bags. Then there was “Napoleon” (ya, he was short), he was really awesome, but like most short men, lied about his height, when we met, even though I liked him, I knew getting over Mr. NY that I was bound to rebound and hurt the next guy, so what did I do? exactly what I thought, found a nice guy, hurt him, and moved on. Then Brown comes along, I was back to healed, open, dating, and seeing what was out there, being objective. I wasn’t turned off by him, but didn’t really have any thoughts on him in particular. He didn’t seem overly zealous over me, which was a relief, but I did want to get to know him. Once we had the “horrible sex”, the way too soon sex, my mind went to worrying that it was too soon, that he’d now freak out and move on. It was exactly what happened, and I don’t think had I not worried about it, had I been cas. about it, he probably would have been too. I won’t even bring up the gay man, ok, I will, I think Browns conventional views and having a problem openly with my open minded views made me look for someone, subconsciously the opposite, and the gay man that participated in mass orgies, was JUST that! Then S shows up, after Brown lied to me about being busy working when he was really on okcupid. S is the epitome of a liar, I think after the last few experiences with liars, I was in the mindset all men are liars, but really, not like this. Nothing S told me was true I don’t think, he was a sick sick individual. Did I invite all of this? Can I reverse any of it? What are your thoughts?  I’d like to hear what other people think about the power of thoughts and what their balance is.

The Universal Law of Attraction
By Mohammed | January 11, 2007

It’s a common phenomenon. Almost everyone can relate. You start looking for a new car, something special, something not like anyone else’s, something unusual. You pick out what seems to be a unique, unusual choice of a special red car and all of a sudden, there it is– your red car, the one you thought was only yours. It’s on every street corner. It is at every stoplight. You see three of these red cars just driving down the freeway. You never saw these cars before. What happened? How did all of these people get your unique red car at the same time?

Well the fact of the matter is that your brain is seeing the red cars that were always there. Since you picked out this car for yourself, that car has become special for you and now you are noticing what was really there all along.

It’s called the “Reticular Activation System” or RAS. It is the part of your brain that automatically filters out what is not important to you and brings your attention to things that are important to you. We all have it. Many a Mom will tell you that they can pick out their own child’s voice within the chorus of many children’s voices. A Mom will be sleeping soundly through noise from many directions and her baby makes a small whimper and she’s wide-awake. Our brains automatically filter what is important and what is not important to us.

Basically the Reticular Activation System is how the Law of Attraction works. We get what we focus on; we create what we think about and the RAS system of our brains just helps this process along.

There are so many misconceptions regarding the Law of Attraction. It seems odd that if this is a Universal Law why people tend to argue with it. Nobody argues with gravity. Of course, gravity is not nearly so misunderstood.

The Law of Attraction is not a new concept. It has been with us since ancient times, which only makes sense if it is a Universal Law. It is mentioned in the Bible
“For as a man thinketh in his heart, so is he”
Proverbs 23:7

Buddha taught about the Law of Attraction
“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become”
Buddha 562-483 B.C.

In the early part of the 20th century many books were written about the Law of Attraction, such as “As a Man thinketh” by James Allen, “The Master Key” by Charles Haanel and one of the most popular books of all time “Think and Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill.

Yet there are those who still argue and express their disbelief. A common argument is that proponents of the Law of Attraction claim that all they have to do is think their lofty thoughts and all of their dreams come true. This could not be further from the truth. The thoughts create the opportunities and the ideas AND the motivation and inspiration to take the ACTION to make it come true.

The Joy in creating comes from developing and dreaming in your own mind but a large part of the FUN of creating comes from the Action taken. Not many achievers are content to sit on the beach and dream of success. There is no fun and there is no challenge in that. It’s a joy to dream the dream, to be attracted to the way and to take the action to make your dreams come true. Sitting on the beach daydreaming may be fun for an hour or two but how boring to live a life like that. Taking action to create your dreams is where the fun and joy in creating comes, not just from the dreams in your own mind.

So Dream the Dream and your RAS will take over and you will be inspired and guided on the right action to take. Take the Action and the Law of Attraction will bring your dream to you.

This article is included in the January 21, 2007 edition of the The Personal Development

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